Motivation

I did it! I finally got out and ran, I did something for once. Last night I went out to play ball and then on my way home I was riding the vb high and decided that I should go for a run. I'm not a runner, nor do I claim to be a runner. In fact, I loath running but I did it. I came home from playing ball and I ran a mile, go me! I know, I know a mile is nothing but the fact that I acted on my motivation made me feel good. It made me feel accomplished. Ya know the running wasn't all that bad either, I mean sure it wasn't easy, but I didn't feel like I was going to keel over and die. The energy that I felt from doing something that my body was clearly craving made me feel good, so I'm going to try this out and see where it gets me. Plus its a good excuse to wear my favorite sneakers, the oh so comfy purple shoes that I just HAD to have. :)
Now if you're anything like me you find almost any excuse not to work out, I've found that headaches are my top excuse. Last night I made a commitment to go play vb with some friends. I had a giant headache when I left, but I went anyways because made a commitment to my friends. (guess what, working out got rid of my headache!) I'm going to attempt this in this journey with you guys. I'm going to make the commitment to myself to work out and make concious efforts to become healthier. I'm also going to make the commitment to you guys that I will make the effort to become healthier.
Here's to friends and motivation, I'm doing this for me but I'm also doing it for you.

I Made It! Hello Gals!

I finally made it on here! Sorry it took it took me so long :)

First off I want to say thank you for allowing me to contribute to this blog and share the journey with you both! The support outside of the blog has been amazing and I feel blessed and lucky to have such wonderful people in my life. Lots of love here :)

So, the snap decision to blog right now at 10:40pm on a Sunday night is because tonight I hit rock bottom with my weight and I had to get it off my mind. I didnt think I could hit rock botom again, but with my bad habits it was bound to happen. I can plan with the best of them and map everything out that I need to do, but the follow through and momentum is the key factor. I used to be very athletic and healthy, people used to always ask me about tips and tricks and how tos of eating right and working out.....I cannot say the same now. I recently gained new stretch marks in various places. I look and feel worn down. Any kind of excercise, even up a hill, makes me breath hard and struggle....and my knee is hurting. I feel the effects of my weight and eating issues physically and mentally.......thats not good... I'm 25yrs old! I'm hiding in sweats and I barely have anything in my closet that fits! No joke! I was down to one pair of black pants that I had to alter by cutting the sides so my love handles had room to breath and it relieved pressure. I was wearing those black pants for the past 6 months (washing them of course!) and I didn't have a pair of jeans that I could fit into for who knows how long. I feared shopping and feared that nothing was out there ofr me to fit into. Now I have a new pair of black pants (along with the old) and a new pair of jeans....all thanks to Shandy and her neverending support and awesome attitude. I fought her tooth and nail when she was trying to help me. I owe her big not only for what she did but for unconditional love and support and great attitude. She's a rare find :) I started the Master Cleanse Detox on Saturday to kick start my body into getting rid of the toxins and sludge inside. Today was day 2 and I went way off track..needless to say I will be starting Day 1 tomorrow (Monday) and being more strict. I know that the MC is not as healthy as other detoxes and I am aware of what to expect. My mom is a nurse and I already heard her side of it :) If I feel like I can't do the whole 14 days then I will stop and ease into my healthy eating plan sooner than expected. I will keep you updated on how I do :)

I am too young to feel this way and to look the way I do.....we all deserve to be our best self whatever that may mean. I cannot change the past and reminisce about the way things were....I often do this and need to stop. I do have control over today and the future hasnt been made yet. My birthday is Sept 4th and I do not want to turn 26 with the way I feel and look.

Sorry about the emotional post and the "Debbi-Downer" attitude....I just needed to get this out. I also had a LONG talk with the man upstairs tonight about everything on my mind....maybe he can magically do something from above :)

I am sure that I blogged way too much info for a first blog contribution..sorry guys!

Thank you again for having me and I will post more soon!

Warm thoughts towards you girls on your journey and together we will get there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take care,
Kristi

Weigh In Day...

Damn. I think I sucked this week. I've only lost 3 lbs in the past two weeks that I've weighed in. I know its a loss, but I think I know in my heart I haven't tried 100%. The stress of travel for this wedding next week is getting to me now. Eat.Eat.Eat. Did you know that if you keep eating the WHOLE bag of mini cadbury eggs... you still don't feel less stressed? Yeah, well I know that but I keep thinking maybe the outcome will change. Which brings me to my next thought...

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

I've been called insane before. I think I am. So.There.

How's that for a 'Go Get 'Em!" attitude? Meh!

Maybe I'll lose 1/2 lb this week. Maybe I'll gain. Maybe I just won't go to a meeting.